New experiences, New me.

I've went through so many different things this year. Gained friends, lost friends, gained knowledge, cried for the first time in four years, had my first official friendiversary(: It's been nice. But I'm going with the flow & that flow just so happens to be taking me to 2011! New year, New me. I honestly don't know what my goals for this year could be! But here's a start.

Goal 1: I want to do something crazy. I've always lived it safe. But I want to be wild for once. Break out of the very little shell I have left to break. I want to be an actual teenager. I want to be careless. Gosh, I sound sooooo lame.

Goal 2: I want to read something everyday. It makes you smarter, yah know? Whether its the back of a cereal box or a novel I can barely pick up! I want to break my brain DOWN.

Goal 3: I want to get in shape. This is for the better. Going along with that is I want to get an actual tan not just from camp? No more cokes for La!

Goal 4: I'm gonna kick Chemistry A where the sun doesn't shine. I WILL DOMINATE IT. I've always sucked at sciences. That' gonna change. I'm buckling down.

Goal 5: I want to meet new people. I see the same old people errrrrr' day! I want someone to mean something to me. Not what I seem to have around here. This is one of my MAIN goals.

Goal 6: I AM getting a car. I'm gonna drive until I run out of gas. I'm in need of an adventure. I need a wild life.

Goal 7: I want to dress somewhat better. More than just my sweats & school t-shirt. I'm classy!

Goal 8: I want to excel at something. Be extraordinarily well at something no one ever thought I would or could do. I want to surprise someone with my talent?

Goal 9: I want to make a serious change with my look. I want to make people ask, 'Who is that lady?' I want to be sooooo different!

 So yeah, I've got a lot of things to work on this year. I'm gonna have my hands full. But I'm gonna get through this! I know this might have been sort of boring. My apologies[: Have a good New Year's guys!

Hello to second chances;

“I am here again, in a familiar place feeling something I've felt before, wondering why it's still here, why I didn't deal with it more fully before. But I'm glad I have a second chance at it ... and I know that if I need a third chance, I'll get it. I also know that if it comes up again, I'll recognize it sooner and deal with it more readily. This is growth. And, I am happy to be alive.” -Jan Denise

They say that everyone deserves a second chance. It's extremely debatable. On one hand, if you keep giving people more and more chances, you're just giving them the path to walk all over you. And it gives people hope that maybe someday that person will change. You just keep feeding candy to a kid with cavities. But in some cases there are some people who deserve second chances. I mean, everyone screws up. And I believe that people can change. So why shouldn't they have a second chance?

On the other hand, you have people who don't put up with people begging for second chances. Who protect themselves well, but may be missing out on something that maybe could have changed. They have a hard shell and a soft heart. 

And this is what clutters my mind. I don't know where I stand. I think some people deserve chances. But who am I to decide who deserves anything? And this is where my mind conflicts. In my own situations, I've been both people. The hard shell and soft shell [Mexican restaurant reference]......with the same person. And now, I'm back in that same situation. With that same person. No lie guys, I pretty much suck. :/ Input would be nice.

On a lighter note, tomorrow is Christmas Day! :D We're supposed to get some snow. Some Scrooges need to smile a little. It's bound to be amazing? 

Why me?

Recently my life has been pretty disturbing. Things have repeatedly happen this week such as being farted on. SO MANY TIMES. It's pretty disgusting. Jessica. Mariah. Kara. Yeah, I suck. I'm not a fan. 

Another thing everyone seems to love to yell at La this week is, STFU. I'm not sure why. The first time was because I'm a cat lover. ALL YOU CAT HATERS ARE SQUARES. [: Just sayin. I don't know what is wrong with me this week. I guess everyone is getting angry with my life decision about loving cats. What a life I live.

We basiclly have the same DNA;

Ladies and Gentlemen, my best friends just happens to be the best of all. Give it up for Hannah Gayle. She happens to be the most wonderful lady around. Yesterday she gott her tonsels taken out. Seeing her like I did yesterday, it made me appreciate her so much more. I know she can get through anything. With or without me. Even if she was angry at me as soon as I walked through that hospital door. [: I LOVE THIS LADY.

Let's go through memory lane, shall we?

"Ha Wheatley! Ha Wheatley! I love you(: Even though, you won't get this post for a while, it's one of Isaac Newton's Laws. Law of Creeping and Best friendory: For every Ha there is a La to love thee. [: REMEMBER THAT."

"I'm a mess and you like to clean up messes this is why we work so well together. Why you're my best friend."

"It's stupid."
"You're stupid."
"You're gay."
"I'm sorry Ha, I didn't mean to say that."
"La, I'm so sorry! You're not gay!
..."Oh, okay. That's good."
"I know."

So I've posted this alot. And I posted alot more? I don't know. I want to punch my computer at the moment. But I love you, Ha. Keep your chin up and smile showing. You deserve it. <3

Snow days! Oh wait. It's ice.

I've taken an understanding to what, "The weather outside is frightful," It's one thing to have wonderful snow every where. But, you know, I can't say I enjoy this freezing rain. It's kind of a bummer. Seeing as how I can't even go sledding or play in it? Or even pick it up without stabbing myself with ice.

 

OH MY GOSH. Major realization that I might have to cram all my finals in tomorrow. It's time to say hello to a bad tomorrow, I suppose? I need water. I need Fiesta Grande. I NEED MY CAT!